Today is a hard day for me. I told myself that I was going to sleep the day away and wake up when everything was all over. But I can't seem to do that and everything reminds me of the sad memory I must remember.
Today is my brothers birthday and in 5 days it will be 2 years since he was taken from me and my family. You figure after 2 years the mourning and pain would be gone but I woke up with it fresh as if it just happened yesterday. All my many questions floated back into my head. "Why?" Why?" "Why?" I can't begin to explain the pain I feel for not having him in my life. To know he has a son he's never meet and my daughter he's never met, I hurt terribly everyday but today it's worse because we would be celebrating his birthday. Sometimes I'm eager to live the days of my life to get to him. Sometimes I feel like what good do I do on earth if he's not here with me. But I know my brother and he would be very upset at me for thinking that way. So I smile and instead of crying and I think about all the good memories I had with him.
I woke up this morning to see what time it was and the date on my clock said October 14th. My brother's birthday. I went back to sleep to ease the thought of not having him but I ended up dreaming about him. I woke up to a voicemail on my phone from our cousin, my brother's best friend. I guess I have to face the music. And it doesn't stop here. I have 5 days to get through. It hurts like hell.
~Missing my brother~
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Secret Fantasy
I saw you
You’ve never seen me before
Wanted something so bad that wasn’t mine
We connected in a way
Walked and talked as we realized we were going to the same place
For a split second I wasn’t who I really was
My dream come true
I sat next to you while reality was in front of me
But the person I’d briefly turned in to anticipated the next move
She forgot about what was true
Slowly we kissed; met mutually
Soft and sensual
The way it was supposed to be
But as quickly as you came
You left
Back to reality
The DIVA
http://www.dominiquewatson.webs.com/
You’ve never seen me before
Wanted something so bad that wasn’t mine
We connected in a way
Walked and talked as we realized we were going to the same place
For a split second I wasn’t who I really was
My dream come true
I sat next to you while reality was in front of me
But the person I’d briefly turned in to anticipated the next move
She forgot about what was true
Slowly we kissed; met mutually
Soft and sensual
The way it was supposed to be
But as quickly as you came
You left
Back to reality
The DIVA
http://www.dominiquewatson.webs.com/
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